so i know its really dorky

yeah so anyways, click on the link for your own dorkiness. at least I know I am the first of my friends to send an e postcard to outer space. beat the homies.

wildbirds and peacedrums

last night at bottom of the hill the two piece wildbirds and peacedrums opened up for san serac and wilderness. this sweedish couple has a unique harmony that draws you in. with their insync drumming and her vocals creating a portal to a field somewhere, they are well worth the price of a ticket and a cd. If you get a chance, check them out. they will be back in february.

I agree with fox news...(at least on this)

why not creative punishments instead of hard time

late night thoughts

bootlegs are fantastic. but are they really? they offer a chance for people to sit in the comfort of their own home and watch movies. this means those folks are not spending money on gas or tickets or popcorn, soda, and candy. this is a few dollars, maybe 25 at most for two people. And according to forbes, the average american spends only 1.2% of their money on fees and admission for entertainment purposes. but the money that they are saving allows them to keep their heat on and their water running and their fridge full. it means the person who sells them the bootleg is able to do those same things for themselves. in the broad picture though it costs the music industry 12.5 billion dollars and 71,000 jobs annually, which means each could be earning over 175000 dollars per year. does the person who sells the bootlegs have that kind of earning potential?

i am going to eat you

wow lets go

how i feel

represent

hey you

me?

robert bank's outlet

Igor Panarin

Igor N. Panarin (Russia)

Doctor of political sciences, professor of the Diplomatic Academy Ministry of Foreign Affairs, Russia.
Prof. PANARIN is the author of nine books, «Infowar and power”, “Infowar and world”, “Infowar and election”, and others, and of many political essays published in various journals.

Prof. PANARIN often take part in different political discussions on the Russian TV on the main problems of Russian policy, development of relationships between USA and Russia and many others.
His main interests are history, philosophy, psychology, computer science, communication, election technology, conceptual problems of globalization, the theory and practice of infowar.

(http://www.russiahouse.org/wrf/Igor_Panarin.htm)

For a couple days I have been thinking about this man and his quote. Is it viable what he said about the American economy being in such turmoil that we will separate as a country, We will divide, not once but five times. No longer a union, but six separate countries he said. He predicted the collapse of our economy in the 1980s and now he predicts this. Does the man have a crystal ball? has he been talking to the man from the future:

John Titor
America will soon be engaged in civil war with itself; a civil war that we'll see the beginnings of during 2004 and 2005, escalating until it is indisputable by 2008 ("a general date by which time everyone will realize the world they thought they were living in was over") and "will consume everyone in the US by 2012"

Craziness, I believe. After all we just united to elect Barack Obama

crossing that bridge

Crossing that bridge when we get there makes sense, but sometimes crossing bridges is a bad idea. I will yell at myself, "Turn around run the other way!!!!" At times I find myself half way across the bridge. It seems silly to go back and I can't stay where I am, but I definitely don't want to go forward. CRAP :{

huh?

The trajectory of a waterfall

Words of wisdom from my boss: "The events of the past week are difficult to articulate, as they remain so close to us. It's like trying to describe the trajectory of a waterfall when you're standing in it. I'm still soaking wet." What can he possibly mean?

Anonymous on 25 November 2008 19:37:55

i cant do that

by the way

this is the cutest little girl in the world (my neice emma)




No I am not biased

Feeling Naked

This guy I know travels a lot. I watch the house when he is gone. I travel the 35 minute trek south to the apartment and hang out for a night. Because of the traveling time and my work schedule I only make it a couple times a week to check in. No biggie, the plants are healthy and the house isn't burned down or flooded. But early last week I drove down and spent the night. Of course leaving the next morning, I left my laptop. It was a horrible couple of days. Until finally on Sunday I went back to get it. I really felt alone in this world. Those few days in between were lonely and miserable. There was a darkness over my head and cloud that followed me everywhere I went. Its sad how attached I am to my laptop. I am okay without the internet for a few days, but to not have the machine at all, that was unbearable. I hope this isn't too unhealthy.

when I am feeling sad

even better

helping me sleep better at night

watch the green scrolling stocks for real excitement

If I knew better would I have bought an american car?

The Senate Banking Committee meanwhile confirmed the chairmen and chief executives of the "Big Three" automakers, Ford, Chrysler and General Motors, would come cap-in-hand to Capitol Hill on Tuesday for a hearing. (Copy write 2008 Stephen Collinson for AFP)

We are at, what a 7.5 % unemployment rate. If people are already comparing our 14 month recession to the great depression of the 20s/30s, what are they going to do if the white house and congress cant agree before its too late. the loan coming from TARP of DOE, who cares, bail out, save millions of jobs, Do something the American public can be proud of. And listen to pres elect and do it with stipulations, not just a blank check. Other wise, we will surpass the 25% unemployment rate of the worst depression in our modern economic history.

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September 21, 2008

Op-Ed Columnist

Aaron Sorkin Conjures a Meeting of Obama and Bartlet

By MAUREEN DOWD

Now that he’s finally fired up on the soup-line economy, Barack Obama knows he can’t fade out again. He was eager to talk privately to a Democratic ex-president who could offer more fatherly wisdom — not to mention a surreptitious smoke — and less fraternal rivalry. I called the “West Wing” creator Aaron Sorkin (yes, truly) to get a read-out of the meeting. This is what he wrote:

BARACK OBAMA knocks on the front door of a 300-year-old New Hampshire farmhouse while his Secret Service detail waits in the driveway. The door opens and OBAMA is standing face to face with former President JED BARTLET.

BARTLET Senator.

OBAMA Mr. President.

BARTLET You seem startled.

OBAMA I didn’t expect you to answer the door yourself.

BARTLET I didn’t expect you to be getting beat by John McCain and a Lancôme rep who thinks “The Flintstones” was based on a true story, so let’s call it even.

OBAMA Yes, sir.

BARTLET Come on in.

BARTLET leads OBAMA into his study.

BARTLET That was a hell of a convention.

OBAMA Thank you, I was proud of it.

BARTLET I meant the Republicans. The Us versus Them-a-thon. As a Democrat I was surprised to learn that I don’t like small towns, God, people with jobs or America. I’ve been a little out of touch but is there a mandate that the vice president be skilled at field dressing a moose —

OBAMA Look —

BARTLET — and selling Air Force Two on eBay?

OBAMA Joke all you want, Mr. President, but it worked.

BARTLET Imagine my surprise. What can I do for you, kid?

OBAMA I’m interested in your advice.

BARTLET I can’t give it to you.

OBAMA Why not?

BARTLET I’m supporting McCain.

OBAMA Why?

BARTLET He’s promised to eradicate evil and that was always on my “to do” list.

OBAMA O.K. —

BARTLET And he’s surrounded himself, I think, with the best possible team to get us out of an economic crisis. Why, Sarah Palin just said Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac had “gotten too big and too expensive to the taxpayers.” Can you spot the error in that statement?

OBAMA Yes, Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac aren’t funded by taxpayers.

BARTLET Well, at least they are now. Kind of reminds you of the time Bush said that Social Security wasn’t a government program. He was only off by a little — Social Security is the largest government program.

OBAMA I appreciate your sense of humor, sir, but I really could use your advice.

BARTLET Well, it seems to me your problem is a lot like the problem I had twice.

OBAMA Which was?

BARTLET A huge number of Americans thought I thought I was superior to them.

OBAMA And?

BARTLET I was.

OBAMA I mean, how did you overcome that?

BARTLET I won’t lie to you, being fictional was a big advantage.

OBAMA What do you mean?

BARTLET I’m a fictional president. You’re dreaming right now, Senator.

OBAMA I’m asleep?

BARTLET Yes, and you’re losing a ton of white women.

OBAMA Yes, sir.

BARTLET I mean tons.

OBAMA I understand.

BARTLET I didn’t even think there were that many white women.

OBAMA I see the numbers, sir. What do they want from me?

BARTLET I’ve been married to a white woman for 40 years and I still don’t know what she wants from me.

OBAMA How did you do it?

BARTLET Well, I say I’m sorry a lot.

OBAMA I don’t mean your marriage, sir. I mean how did you get America on your side?

BARTLET There again, I didn’t have to be president of America, I just had to be president of the people who watched “The West Wing.”

OBAMA That would make it easier.

BARTLET You’d do very well on NBC. Thursday nights in the old “ER” time slot with “30 Rock” as your lead-in, you’d get seven, seven-five in the demo with a 20, 22 share — you’d be selling $450,000 minutes.

OBAMA What the hell does that mean?

BARTLET TV talk. I thought you’d be interested.

OBAMA I’m not. They pivoted off the argument that I was inexperienced to the criticism that I’m — wait for it — the Messiah, who, by the way, was a community organizer. When I speak I try to lead with inspiration and aptitude. How is that a liability?

BARTLET Because the idea of American exceptionalism doesn’t extend to Americans being exceptional. If you excelled academically and are able to casually use 690 SAT words then you might as well have the press shoot video of you giving the finger to the Statue of Liberty while the Dixie Chicks sing the University of the Taliban fight song. The people who want English to be the official language of the United States are uncomfortable with their leaders being fluent in it.

OBAMA You’re saying race doesn’t have anything to do with it?

BARTLET I wouldn’t go that far. Brains made me look arrogant but they make you look uppity. Plus, if you had a black daughter —

OBAMA I have two.

BARTLET — who was 17 and pregnant and unmarried and the father was a teenager hoping to launch a rap career with “Thug Life” inked across his chest, you’d come in fifth behind Bob Barr, Ralph Nader and a ficus.

OBAMA You’re not cheering me up.

BARTLET Is that what you came here for?

OBAMA No, but it wouldn’t kill you.

BARTLET Have you tried doing a two-hour special or a really good Christmas show?

OBAMA Sir —

BARTLET Hang on. Home run. Right here. Is there any chance you could get Michelle pregnant before the fall sweeps?

OBAMA The problem is we can’t appear angry. Bush called us the angry left. Did you see anyone in Denver who was angry?

BARTLET Well ... let me think. ...We went to war against the wrong country, Osama bin Laden just celebrated his seventh anniversary of not being caught either dead or alive, my family’s less safe than it was eight years ago, we’ve lost trillions of dollars, millions of jobs, thousands of lives and we lost an entire city due to bad weather. So, you know ... I’m a little angry.

OBAMA What would you do?

BARTLET GET ANGRIER! Call them liars, because that’s what they are. Sarah Palin didn’t say “thanks but no thanks” to the Bridge to Nowhere. She just said “Thanks.” You were raised by a single mother on food stamps — where does a guy with eight houses who was legacied into Annapolis get off calling you an elitist? And by the way, if you do nothing else, take that word back. Elite is a good word, it means well above average. I’d ask them what their problem is with excellence. While you’re at it, I want the word “patriot” back. McCain can say that the transcendent issue of our time is the spread of Islamic fanaticism or he can choose a running mate who doesn’t know the Bush doctrine from the Monroe Doctrine, but he can’t do both at the same time and call it patriotic. They have to lie — the truth isn’t their friend right now. Get angry. Mock them mercilessly; they’ve earned it. McCain decried agents of intolerance, then chose a running mate who had to ask if she was allowed to ban books from a public library. It’s not bad enough she thinks the planet Earth was created in six days 6,000 years ago complete with a man, a woman and a talking snake, she wants schools to teach the rest of our kids to deny geology, anthropology, archaeology and common sense too? It’s not bad enough she’s forcing her own daughter into a loveless marriage to a teenage hood, she wants the rest of us to guide our daughters in that direction too? It’s not enough that a woman shouldn’t have the right to choose, it should be the law of the land that she has to carry and deliver her rapist’s baby too? I don’t know whether or not Governor Palin has the tenacity of a pit bull, but I know for sure she’s got the qualifications of one. And you’re worried about seeming angry? You could eat their lunch, make them cry and tell their mamas about it and God himself would call it restrained. There are times when you are simply required to be impolite. There are times when condescension is called for!

OBAMA Good to get that off your chest?

BARTLET Am I keeping you from something?

OBAMA Well, it’s not as if I didn’t know all of that and it took you like 20 minutes to say.

BARTLET I know, I have a problem, but admitting it is the first step.

OBAMA What’s the second step?

BARTLET I don’t care.

OBAMA So what about hope? Chuck it for outrage and put-downs?

BARTLET No. You’re elite, you can do both. Four weeks ago you had the best week of your campaign, followed — granted, inexplicably — by the worst week of your campaign. And you’re still in a statistical dead heat. You’re a 47-year-old black man with a foreign-sounding name who went to Harvard and thinks devotion to your country and lapel pins aren’t the same thing and you’re in a statistical tie with a war hero and a Cinemax heroine. To these aged eyes, Senator, that’s what progress looks like. You guys got four debates. Get out of my house and go back to work.

OBAMA Wait, what is it you always used to say? When you hit a bump on the show and your people were down and frustrated? You’d give them a pep talk and then you’d always end it with something. What was it ...?

BARTLET “Break’s over.”

Copyright 2008 The New York Times Company

prop 8 and the bible

My Friend Everett thinks he is clever

Judge: Ohio Homeless Voters Can List Park Benches as Addresses
A federal judge rules that homeless voters in Ohio may list park benches
and other locations as addresses.


But will the US Post Office deliver your mail to : The Green Bench ,
the Park at 5th and Main, Toledo, Oh.

Or maybe The Whirlpool Refrigerator Box, Behind Sears Store,
Simpson Street (alley) , Columbus, Oh.

here is one for him:

Election Day

For all those democrats living in republican area who fear their vote means nothing, imagine being a Sarah Palin lookalike in a democratic area!

1999 to 2006

2 glolden globes
26 emmys
61 other awards
176 nominations

presidential economic policy

In 1929, The Economist wrote, "Can a very serious Stock Exchange collapse produce a serious setback to industry when industrial production is for the most part in a healthy and balanced condition?"

In 2008, The Economist writes, "Even as talk mounted of the rich world suffering its worst financial collapse since the Depression, emerging economies seemed a long way from the centre of the storm."

The situation, as the article continues is "No Longer."

Recessions occur. Its part of the cycle. Everyone knows this. But now, we are in a new age. This global market is heavily interdependent on emerging economies and the industrial production abroad and at home. What is our role in this? What will the future president attempt to reconcile in these markets? We know they will have help.

Obama has 7 advisors on economic policy, wile McCain has 34.

While McCain's number seems impressive there are a lot of people to sift through. The amount of research just to find out who these people are that will be making our economic policy suggestions to the possible future of the United States. And they more than likely will have some disputes on things.

Obama's seven? Who are these people? What will there role be if Obama is elected?

Even with the help of these people, what will congress do? During the Depression they added a tariff on top of an existing tariff. And while the Smoot-Hawley Tariff Act has debatable impact on the economy, the fact that over 1000 economists, plus Henry Ford, and JP Morgan urged against it and it was still passed in to law says much for our leaders.

Who are these people that we are electing to run our government?

weddings

this is my cuz and her new hubby

My Vacation

Date Conditions High Low Precipitation Cleveland Oct 8 Rain 62° 55° 80% Oct 9 Partly Cloudy 69° 50° 20% Oct 10 Sunny 71° 55° 10% Oct 11 AM Clouds 70° 52° 10% PM Sun Oct 12 Sunny 71° 54° 20% Youngstown Oct 13 Partly Cloudy 74° 53° 20% Cleveland Oct 14 Few Showers 69° 48° 30%

random late night thoughts

Life transitions are some of the most difficult things I have ever had to go through. Throughout my past there have been many transitions, but I have breezed through them because there were more important things to look forward to. Now I find myself in a loss. I have nothing to look forward to and only memories, happy and sad, that haunt my present. I sleep little at night, lying awake in the arms of a ghost, holding onto nothing but thoughts that drive me insane. It is the reality of changing that scares me from the possibility of "what-ifs" Sometimes pushing me so far away from all of it, that the only "what-if" I see is an empty room with chaos written on the wall

cotton sheets

i hide under my sheets thinking they would protect me.
my armor of cotton but it doesn't stop anything

it doesn't stop the screams or the tears
that wake me in my nightmares

the shivering cold that permeates through
as if a winter wind blows through an open window

it will not protect me from a thief
wanting to attack me in the middle of the night

but like a young fool in love,
i wrap myself in it

i have false hopes of its strength
promised to me by fancy salesmen

perhaps i have been fooled by the emperor's tailors
while looking for a piece of magic that doesn't exist

maybe i should let go of these old sheets,
maybe i should run to the first store i see and buy new ones

but these sheets have so much past
does a child get rid of its baby blanket as it ages?

my mother packed mine in a box in the attic.
i rarely see it anymore.

my garden

So today I planted my first plant at my new place.  Its a Helichrysum petiolare "limelight" aka Licorice plant.  It a beautiful shrub that has multiple medicinal purposes, but mostly for the purpose of respiration.  It also can be used as a pain reliever and as a bug repellent. It is drought tolerant, as well.  So if I am not around and my roommates don't want to take care of the yard, they don't have to.  I think this is going to be a theme for my garden.

To celebrate my new job

I made Ghiradelli chocolate chip, walnut and raisin cookies.  They were good. MMmmm! 

There is a recipe on the back of the Ghiradelli semi sweet baking chocolate chip bag, but I added the raisins.  I also didn't use all of the butter and sugar.  Instead I added Orange juice.  delicious treats mmmm!

(This is meant to be spoken, not read)

The moon that looked below, upon me, has seen the sun not yet

but this heart i wear around me has felt a tear of sweat

it trickles from a brow and soaks a pillow case

do to you that has me aroused

and cause this heart to race

a beat as fast as song

from the angels in the night sky

while i feel your touch along

and grasp for air in my mouth, so dry

now robins take angels' ends and sings of sonnet new

she sings the morning hymn

and calls us two to choir

as we leave a little grin on a sheet that has perspired

and the moon that looked below upon me has seen the sun not yet

but this heart I wear around me is soaked from tears of sweat.

MOMA cafeteria at 11:57

The asians use forks

but the black men use chopsticks

Cultures attempting to connect to cultures?

No language barrier broken

would allow them to sit together.

In the hustle and bustle of the lunchroom madness,

I see more Mark Rothko,

than Pablo Picasso.

Tagged

These bricks were once graced with words

Dancers like Russian ballerinas

but the colors have now faded away

The colors so bright and so bold

are mere memories of the past

There were hands, which caressed the cement, the mortar

Creating beauty

and art

But someone didn't agree

someone had to hide

someone had to flee

the reds, oranges, and yellows

golds, and greens

No more purple, no more white

Everything went black

then blue

When we heard

I thought they were going to cut off your fingers

instead

they pulled out your heart

we all cried the day they painted over it.

Haikus

I

She said write a haiku

I thought hmm...

How do I do that?

II

Writing a haiku

It seems so simple

Like pulling out a tooth.

III

I need another haiku

I lay my head on my pillow

and fall asleep

Youngstown ohio

Seeking the sunlight,

the trees mask

forming rays of golden goddesses

they drip drop dance

down

little vials of golden sun juice

red

orange

yellow

green

pink

and brown

leaves

carpet the moisten earth.

As I walk through the golden goddesses

they drip drop dance down upon

me

in the palm of my hand

blessing me

inviting me

adopting me

On this gray Formica

barren sky-lined city day

they sunlight I sought found me.

rough draft

No skills

he says he has none, but i see the brushes stroke from his imagination
Alone in his bathroom he'll sit and draws pictures on his walls
Singing a sad melody filling the room with cold air
The breeze blows inside from the bathroom window
That was left open as she climbed out, not looking back
Humming the same sad melody.

She sits at her computer typing words away that will never be read

Listening to the sweet sound of his favorite band
And she remembers the warm sunny day when he gave her that song
But now he is gone and he is left to fight a war that serves greed's purpose
A song she never loved.

He lays in a bed cold from the emptiness that surrounds him
Silence takes over the night
Sirens blare his cry
He crushes his head into his pillow, remembering her face
As if, she was looking at him,
Only a pillow away.

the darjeeling limited

So I am not the fastest at getting to movies. I am often caught up in other day to day activities. After all I don't live in a basement of my parents house. I am jealous if you do, as many of my friends are, but I am also thankful of my freedom. I also have been almost consistently employed, or busy with something big in my life.

Anyway, I finally got around to watching Wes Anderson's last big movie. While the reviews were not spectacular, even from my wes anderson fan friends, I must admit, it was sweet in my heart. The movie seemed to try to hard to be the royal tennenbaums. The colors were brighter and bolder, perhaps that was the problem. The characters seem to not function as they should, but the movie definitely left an impression. I think the movie was great because it made me think. I constantly was asking why? what does this mean? what message is he trying to convey with this song or those colors? What is happening in this shot? So perhaps the directing and even the storyline could have been better, it seemed to me to bring about something that was needed. At least in me, Inspiration. Some days it comes and some days it doesnt. I guess that is the curse to having a fickle muse.

Corporate policies in a non-corporate environment

I understand the need to standardize and brand things. But no matter how much I try to grasp the world of corporatization, I can not find my place within it. The rules and regulations can be as clear and concise. I may even agree with them all, but I find assimilation the most difficult of tasks. Reflection states immediate disheartening. Is it my character flaws that prevent me from adapting? Is it me that is wrong? I often think this. I often blame myself in the end. So when I finally find an amazing job, then maybe I will be able to conform. I thought I had it. Three miles from my house. Comfortable and cool. It was a temporary stage. It was expectations that I gave myself, expectations no one else set up. I was wrong to think this was the place. If only I could grasp the real world.

Elegy

The summer days are coming closer
but its cold like early spring
The Robins chirp
while I kick around leaves from last fall as I walk up to my apartment door
I suppose I should call it ours
But we are no longer one,
We are two separate entities
living bilaterally
We ride our bikes in the same direction, miles apart.
The cool breeze blows my hair in my face
the sunlight is bright and high
But my hair blinds me
The sunlight blinds me
the way, you used to blind me
with our love
The summer days will pass too
the leaves will fall
and I will kick them
as I walk up to a strange and new door.

Prince

Do you know why Prince didn't wear purple at Coachella?



Cause Gogol Bordello stole his wardrobe!

Coachella

As a second year vet, I came to Coachella Valley Music Festival with a little clue as what to expect. And even though I was prepared in every way possible, there is always a surprise. The big surprise this year was from myself. I am regaining my independence. I am wondering on my own. I am meeting new people and exploring everything around me. I am saying goodbye to the hold-my-hand-syndrome I held last year.
These characteristics were once pronounced with me before, they have lost there place. I strike a match and allowed myself in again. I have burnt the codependency the way I have burnt pictures of ex-boyfriends. But I am wondering what will happen to me in the future. Will I maintain my independence? What will I have to lose the interdependence that I have? Is there room for people in my life that helped occupy the co-dependent stages?
Confused and strong, this is being 27.