Corporate policies in a non-corporate environment

I understand the need to standardize and brand things. But no matter how much I try to grasp the world of corporatization, I can not find my place within it. The rules and regulations can be as clear and concise. I may even agree with them all, but I find assimilation the most difficult of tasks. Reflection states immediate disheartening. Is it my character flaws that prevent me from adapting? Is it me that is wrong? I often think this. I often blame myself in the end. So when I finally find an amazing job, then maybe I will be able to conform. I thought I had it. Three miles from my house. Comfortable and cool. It was a temporary stage. It was expectations that I gave myself, expectations no one else set up. I was wrong to think this was the place. If only I could grasp the real world.

Elegy

The summer days are coming closer
but its cold like early spring
The Robins chirp
while I kick around leaves from last fall as I walk up to my apartment door
I suppose I should call it ours
But we are no longer one,
We are two separate entities
living bilaterally
We ride our bikes in the same direction, miles apart.
The cool breeze blows my hair in my face
the sunlight is bright and high
But my hair blinds me
The sunlight blinds me
the way, you used to blind me
with our love
The summer days will pass too
the leaves will fall
and I will kick them
as I walk up to a strange and new door.